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dear, God...i know U have such a twisted sense of humor, but it has never been dis far before. well, who am i 2 question Ur will ? i'm just a lously helpless human. so wat i'm gonna do is just laugh and laugh about my twistedly funny fate. till i die.

people said dat forgetting d one we love is hard ? dat we will seems 2 see him/her everytime, everywhere ? tell me about it. now wat should i do ? turning off all the TV and internet ? throwing away all the newspapers and magazines ? covering my sensitive ears 2 people's talk ? moving out and live in a deserted island like tom hanks in "cast away" ? or simply just throwing myself from the roof ?

everything i have done is dis past few years...what is it for ? chasing 4 sumthing dat is now BEYOND my reach. *i will give u a number : 150. maybe consists of more than 100 hot single girls* fine. i will live single and die alone. so what ? i don't need a substitute. a di*** will be enough...excuse my word.

i have laughed. i have cried. i have done a long thought to figure out wheter i'm exaggerating. well, honestly...i dun think i am. it's like a newly ex-smoker dat being thrown away to a world of cigarettes. just kill me now.

PS : is this post so obvious ? well, i couldn't care less. just consider it as a little more publication. go on and gossip about me, tell others about how pathetic i am. have fun :)

old single cat lady

if "art of love" is a subject in school then i would get a D for sure...IF I'M LUCKY. why i'm never good at dis ?? damn ! well, i'm a straight forward person. i always say wat i mean and mean wat i say. sadly, dat is not how it works here. if there is a guide of how 2 act when we re attracted 2 sumone then i will definitely buy it coz i seems 2 have no clue. why does when we re, girls, pursuing boys we love relentlessly we will be called too aggressive...but when boys do d same thing they will get credits 4 dat ? am i wrong 2 say dat it isn't fair ??

i'm tired of feeling like a crap. is it a sin 2 love sumone n fight 4 dat ? does it make me a person 2 look down 2 ? sorry then if it's true, but nobody can make me feel inferior if i dun let them 2. n u know wat ? i won't. i know u know how i feel about u, n u know dat i wanna be with u. if u dun feel d same about me then it's ur lost, not mine :)

honestly, even if my friends always say dat i'm still young, deep down in my heart i always feel dat if dis isn't work out...i'm not gonna find another. call me pessimistic, tell me dat i haven't seen half of d world...tell me dat there re a lot of fish in d ocean. wat i'm gonna say is dis : i dun want another fish. i'd rather dun eat fish at all than eating an anchovy when i'm longing 4 a tuna. i will only end up comparing them n feel sorry 4 myself n d anchovy.

beside, being single isn't bad after all. picturing myself 50 years later as an old VIRGIN lady with tons of cats actually dun scare me at all *better, when i can erase d word "virgin" n change it 2 "single" only :D* maybe i will adopt a cute caucasian girl as my daughter and named her "america". maybe not, if d idea of being a single mom scare me too much. well, i still have a lot of time 2 think, wat i'm sure about is dat i'll be relieved 2 not be a part of any complicated unhealthy relationship with any guy - other than u at any stage of my life :)

just enjoy the show

i'm a persistent bastard n dat gives me hard time sumtimes. i always know wat i want,,usually forced my way into it...n i often keep obsessing bout things i can't control. is dis really an ADHD ? seriously.

i know i can't change how ppl feel bout me. i know i can work my as* off but still i can't make u turn 2 me. so let it be...rite ?? enjoy life. have fun. study hard. do anythings interesting which have nothing 2 do with dat particular matter. it's my life n i just live once.

yes,,it's true dat i can recall dat nite as one of the happiest nite in my live....one of d tops three at least. but it's not like i'm gonna give my peace of mind away just bcoz of one nite. it's a whole lot better remembering it as a sweet memory than a thing 2 be obsessing over. i'm not saying dat i'm gonna giving up on u...there is no way i would do dat,,as long as i can still functioning (in dis case means alive) but i'm gonna take an advice dat my wise friend gave me : take it slow,,relax,,n enjoy d show :)

another cinderella story

"cinderella" probably is one of the most famous everlasting fairytale. it has everything. a girl, a prince, magic, a sparkling couch, a ball, and happy ending. when a girl feels like a cinderella, it's a good thing...but "cinderella" has its own miserable parts. in my opinion the most miserable one is not the domestic violence that is done by her step mom and siters, instead it's the time when the magic time is over.

we all know that cinderella went to the ball by a sparkling couch made from a pumpkin, and then dancing all night long with the prince in her glass shoes. but when it's passed midnight she must return to her home or else all of her disguise will be discovered. now i know how painful it is for her when she heard the midnight bell. it's like "i can't believe it's happening to me...it's a dream come true !" turns to "is it over already ?" in no time.

well, i want to put on this glass shoes forever but i guess there is always a time when the magic ends. but still i had a blast and thank God for that. i just hope that it's not the ending. that a happy end is waiting for me at the corner...amen :D

F*UCK MY LIFE

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i admit dat 4 me it's a pleasure 2 read about other ppl's misery when i'm in a bad mood. it makes me 2 look at my own condition n say : dis isn't too bad after all :)

here is d examples :

Today, I saw a professor of mine who I admire as I went into the bathroom. We greeted each other, then I went into a stall and he went into the stall next to mine. For the next five minutes, he had to listen to me having epic diarrhea. FML

Today, while watching a movie, I said to my new girlfriend it's bullshit how girls get away with false advertising by stuffing their bras, but the second a guy stuffs his pants it's game over. She seemed upset and went to the bathroom, finally coming out at least 2 cup sizes smaller. FML

Today, my boyfriend told me he loved me for the first time. He followed it with, "Want to try anal?" FML

Today, after months of careful dieting and avoiding scales so I wouldn't discourage myself, I decided to weigh myself to see how far I've come. I gained ten pounds. FML

Today, I found a cute baby bunny... with my lawn mower. FML

Today, I felt the urge to sneeze, so out of instinct I looked away from the computer and sneezed to my left. The rotating fan was blowing at my direction at that moment, so I just sneezed on my own face. FML

Today, I was lying in bed with my boyfriend after a rather steamy session. He kept softly whispering, "That was amazing, that was amazing..." I kissed him and agreed. Apparently he was talking about the fact that he'd managed to throw the used condom into the bin using his left hand. FML

Today, I was walking the dog when I noticed a hot guy checking me out. Flustered, I continued walking, only to trip over my dog and land on my face. The hot guy took a picture, laughed, and walked away. FML

Today, I was trying on a $200 shirt from Guess. I was too fat to fit into it, but my friend convinced me it would look hot. It suddenly ripped. I tried to take it off. It ripped some more. FML

Today, I was looking through some pics that my friend had taken at a party I was at. I noticed I was in one and wasn't tagged so I tagged myself. Half an hour later I was untagged and cropped out of the picture. FML

Today, I went to the beach with my kids. I found a sea shell and gave it to my 4 year old daughter and said "You can hear the ocean if you put this to your ear." She put the shell to her ear and screamed. There was a hermit crab inside and it pinched her ear. She never wants to go back. FML

Today, my boyfriend told me he's only with me because his friend bet £30 that he couldn't get me into bed. He told me after I had just lost my virginity to him. He then dumped me. FML

Today, I was searching for my crush at the campus because I haven't seen him since he wrecked my car and I miss him. Only to find out that right now he's in another city, with his ex-girlfriend. FML

Today, I was getting ready to host a party when I let loose a huge fart, pooing a bit at the same time. I was just changing when my crush arrived saying she really had to use the toilet. Without thinking I showed her where it was. Where did I leave my poo covered boxers? On the bathroom floor. FML

Today, I got my foot run over by my mother backing out of the garage. Then, when I was helped into the car to be taken to the doctor, my mother slams the same foot in the door. Later at the doctor's, I got my damaged foot stepped on by a very large and heavy woman. FML

Today, I locked my dog inside so she wouldn't bother me while I was cleaning the yard. After I finished picking up all her shit, I came inside to realize she shit all over my kitchen floor. FML

Today, I set my status on Facebook to "Got hit by a car. In the hospital for a few weeks." 10 people liked it and 1 person asked if there was a video. FML

why would i bother 2 write them here ? well,,turns out dat writing bout other ppl misery's even more fun than reading it. i should add it 2 my list *evil mode : totally ON*

YEIY,,F*CK MY LIFE !! :))

about glee

after doing my post about ginny,,i found dat actually ginny isn't d only one who has dat kind of story out there. i just watched d 13th episode of glee (1st season) and i think it's pretty memorable,,especially when will and emma were kissing as the song "my life will suck without u" by kelly clarkson was played at d background. well,,just like i have never like ginny weasley,,i also was never a fan of emma pillsbury *i guess i just dun like d 'goody2 shoes' type of girl* but i'm happy 2 see them finally 2gether *sorry terri* coz i like 2 see a girl who fought 4 her love being triumphant at d end. like i said,,it brings so much inspiration 2 me...and i will keep searching 4 more and more similar stories and post it here,,while working on my own happy ending :) so dis is not d first story of love and hope in dis blog...and it definitely won't b d last...

about ginny

i like harry potter series...in fact i have read and collected all of d books and spent my childhood obsessing about it. i even had a crush on my cousin dat has d same face as daniel radcliffe *interested ? no,,there is no way i can give u his fb link xD* having said dat,,on dis special occasion i will write sumthing about HP but it definitely isn't a review coz i know there re millions of them at d internet. tonite i will write about : GINNY WEASLEY.

no,,i personally dun like ginny weasley or bonnie wright *no offense 2 her fans* if i am asked which one of HP girls i like,,i will say : luna lovegood, nymphadora tonks n fleur delacour *i orginally also like bellatrix lestrange but i hate her more bcoz she killed sirius T.T* but wats interesting about ginny is dat SHE GOT D MAN OF HER DREAMS AT D END.

for d non HP fans,,it's stated in d book dat ginny has loved harry since her 1st year at hogwarts but at dat time harry wasn't interested. it's kinda sad actually dat ginny's affection towards harry has been a favorite subject of jokes and mockeries by her own brothers. even her valentine card ended up *i dun really remember* being sat by harry ? but suddenly at harry's 6th year (ginny's 5th year) harry realized dat he actually had d same feeling as ginny when he saw ginny kissed dean thomas. until know i still dunno how it happens. even in a magic world love dun suddenly appear out of nowhere rite ? it's not like harry was in denial 4 years coz there was totally no sign of dat. but doesn't matter how,,i would say dat dat is an ultimate inspiration 4 me.

i know there re many significant differences between HP world n dis world we re live in rite now *the most prominent one is dat here broom doesn't fly* but feelings does change rite ? i wanna believe it...hopefully like ginny,,i also can get d man of my dreams :)